From Julie Constantin

Subject: Sunday the 29th: Sausalito?

I was first introduced to Doug on a street corner in Adam's Morgan by my brother, Jim Allegro. I remember his striking blue eyes, that I still see crystal clear in my mind's eye. I remember a distinct feeling of deja vu...that somehow I knew this man. I was going thru a rough patch in my life and I remember how in an afternoon, the possibilities in life seemed endless.

That was the power of Doug. He helped me to love the parts of myself that were different...that's just one of the things that made him special. We stayed in touch over the years and about 6 years ago, I read a book on past lives, Many Lives Many Masters....about reincarnation. It was a lightbulb for me. I immediately emailed Doug as I was sure he had been in my pod before. He loved that! Out he went to get the book and sure enough he wrote three days later (he had read the series!), and yes, he told me, he was pretty sure we had been in the same pod.

We talked a lot about dream and he thought if we tried really hard, we could talk to each other in DreamLand. One morning he emailed, Did you see me? In his dream I was standing in yard full of children and he was floating above. He was waving to me and he wasn't sure if I had seen him. I was so disappointed I hadn't, but I told him I'd look harder. I cry as I write it....I can only hope he'll come to talk to me in my dreams again.

Over the last year, I've had a fascination with Rothko paintings and learned that the Rothko chapel was near Doug's home in Houston. I have been meaning to plan a trip there and to visit Doug. Now I need to go more than ever, but he'll be sorely missed. I live just a few miles from where the ant farm used to be. It breaks my heart I won't be able to make it to DC but my husband and I are planning a trip to the docks in Sausalito. We'll light a candle, pop some champagne and think about the future....our hearts will be with all of you back in DC.

To Doug's family, and his parents, you are in my prayers. You must be amazingly proud of the wonderful son you raised. He touched so many lives.

To Doug, thanks for all my friend. I'll sure miss you. Please come see my in my dreams.

Julie Constantin
San Anselmo California
(if anyone in SF would like to join me on sunday for a doug moment, please call)